I have two French tests in less than 12 hours. One is a chapter test, the other is a midterm. I haven't really studied--I never really study. I'm nervous about this midterm, though. I really need to learn to sleep. Actually, I just need to learn to get things done in a timely manner. I stay up until 2 AM drawing quick little sketches instead of sleeping. I read books for fun instead of getting that homework done. I do every little thing I don't need to do before the things that I have to do. It's going to ruin me one of these days.
But how did I get here? How did I go from being uptight and organized to being forgetful and lazy? I don't understand it, I don't know what started this chain of events. Why can't I strike a happy balance? I'm not happy where I'm at. Sure, there are things here and there that make me happy--like lunch today--but at the end of the day, when I'm sitting up while everyone else is asleep, I'm not happy at all. What is wrong with me?
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